Didn’t know I’d be back here so soon. My last essay summed up the essence of my life for me. I didn’t want to look beyond anything now. But then suddenly out of nowhere this strange feeling engulfed me and left me feeling lost, confused and vulnerable.
And it became all the more severe with music. Music, the fodder for my soul. Only a sad heart knows how music heals. No, I am not sad..I am ecstatic! Because I’ve realized new meanings to re-live my life..
No, I’m not talking about the petty norms of our ‘civilized’ society which takes sadistic pleasure in ‘civilizing’ our emotions…! But I’m talking about love, that wonderful feeling which escapes definition and has yet been defined as love..
Though I’m glad there is a name to it..
We seem to have lost our selves, our true feelings, our soul.. and love is such a taboo in some societies.. If only they realized the power of love.. It took me a long time to feel this feeling of ecstacy and wonder that is called love. And by love again I don’t mean a feeling that is restricted to a particular relationship and revered by all.
When love fills you up, it flows out of you and touches every soul. It teaches you to accept everybody as they are.. but most importantly it broadens your perspectives and reveals your true identity to yourself. It’s the best and the easiest way to reach your soul. Love is magical, thrilling and delightful..This is the closest I could come to express it.
Its very sad to see love being abused by people as they attach conventions and definitions to this beautiful feeling. In the process they lose the real emotion. And then they end up having no love!
The world would be a different place if people let their souls guide their bodies. Lost and overwhelmed by their material needs, love becomes just another material possession for many.
But love escapes all this. It reveals itself in a fleeting moment to us..But we are so lost, so so lost that we do not perceive those moments at all.. But some do and they try toexpress it..but they fail..because it is a different dimension altogether. The conventions of our dimension will not be able to categorize or define it or even point at it. That is why some people do not understand or feel love, because they are shut, trapped!
I do not claim to have understood the feeling completely, because I’m trapped in my body too. But I’ve glimpsed those fleeting moments and I want to keep feeling it.. because in those moments I feel completely free and closer to my soul. Desire!! Its very hard to give up on ‘I’..
I keep wondering why people stop loving one another after a certain period of time. It is beacuse we define what is or should be love. We do not feel it..
The moment you start feeling love you would never be the same. That is the only criteria to realize that you are in love. And by change I again do not mean for a transitory moment. It is an everlasting state..